Monday, September 24, 2012

Heartsick

After a long couple of weeks during which the family has experienced more heartache and stress and back and forth from hospital to convalescent home to a different hospital (see here and here), Sweet Dub's stepmother elected today to take Dub Senior off of life support. She signed the papers and then she left.

This is not something I could ever imagine doing if it were my husband lying there, but then you never know what you would do in a specific situation unless you're actually in it, so I guess I can't judge.

Since Sweet Dub doesn't want his father to die alone, he is driving down to the hospital now to sit with his dad and hold his hand and talk to him, and hopefully his dad will be able to hear him or at least sense that someone who loves him is there with him. 

I have already taken three days off over the past couple of weeks and I know I will have to take more after Dub Senior passes on, so as ridiculous as this sounds, I have to stay in the office (I also have to go pick up the kids, let's not forget about them).

I just feel sick.

2 comments:

Bridget said...

Oh, dear. I'm just reading this (belatedly) and I am so, so sorry. I am sure that Senor Dub heard your husband and felt love, and where he is at right now is in Love. I have no doubt of that. Again, I'm just so sorry. Many condolences to you all and especially Sweet Dub.

Lisa Blah Blah said...

Belated thanks for your comment. I will say that I think he is at peace, and Sweet Dub is definitely at peace with their relationship. Despite this being one of the roughest periods of his life, I think it changed him for the better. Really a spiritual experience for him - he feels like God brought him back to his dad at just the right time.