Monday, November 30, 2009

Burning the Candle at Both Ends

You should write a book, they say.

Oh my God, that’s hilarious. When are you going to write about it?

If you don’t write all this stuff down, you’ll lose it.

At the same time: work, sickness, two small kids. November started with the flu and ended with some gastrointestinal horrors, sandwiched around but not related to or caused by Thanksgiving. A small girl who is lonely and whose tummy hurts and who wants her mama. An even smaller girl who wants to be in the middle of where everyone is, who repeats over and over in the sweetest voice imaginable, “Uh-oh!” about everything.

And the holidays! They are upon us. Good grief.

Where will I find the time?

I lost a week of work this month to illness. I am so terribly behind. I worked at home during the Thanksgiving weekend. I worked this evening after putting the kids to bed. Speaking of which, the baby (soon-to-be-toddler) is waking up three times a night. It is like she has regressed back to the early days. And, exhausted, my sweet husband has passed out next to the baby. He is snoring softly. And just in thinking of him I think, his birthday is coming up. Yet another twinge of guilt and despair! How will I get it all done?

I need time for myself – time to exercise, time to write things that aren’t for work, time to get my hair cut. I am feeling a bit raggedy. I breathe. I am thankful, don’t get it twisted. My little family is such a swirling tide of love. I just feel like I am constantly pulling together a shawl that is unraveling and getting smaller all the time. It just won’t cover me.

And in taking the time to write it down, at least I can look back and remember what on earth was going on. And find the humor in it. Ha. Ha. Yes, and ha.

Thankfully, Los Angeles does not disappoint. Last week, I was driving south on Crenshaw Blvd. and just as I reached the red light at Jefferson, I saw a bright orange ice-cream-type truck turn left onto Crenshaw. That truck, my friends, was the Grilled Cheese Truck. Now, THAT is fabulousness made real. The Grilled Cheese Truck just made its debut in October of this year, so I feel I am almost somewhat on the cutting edge in reporting this to you. They tweet and publish a schedule of when the truck will be in various locations so you can go get a fresh grilled cheese sandwich when the mood strikes. Among other things, they do a Gruyere melt, which sounds divine.

Yup, Grilled Cheese Truck. You heard it here first (maybe). Now I must arise from the laptop and collapse into bed, at which point no doubt the Babe will awake and I will suppress the urge to scream. One love, all. One love.


Cee in SF said...

I heard it from you first! I want me some Gruyere - all melty on white bread. Yes, I said white bread. I don't like my grains and cheese mixing.

Cee in SF said...

I should also have mentioned that I'm sorry things are so busy! I wish I could hand you a grilled cheese right NOW!

Bridget said...

SO glad you are all on the mend. I think illnesses like these pop up less as kids get older. I was sick all the time when mine were your children's ages.

Let stuff go if you have to, just to get through the season. I had to do that two years ago and we are all alive to still speak of it.

And DAMN! LA does have it goin' on! A Grill Cheese Truck? Seriously? I want a sandwich of every kind!

Lisa Blah Blah said...

Cee: I know, doesn't it sound GOOOOD? I already had lunch but your comment is making me want more. No worries on the busyness, it will pass.

Bridget: Our dishwasher broke down on Thanksgiving night. Unfortunately, dirty dishes and pots can't just be let go. I wish they could. I feel like I spend hours each week washing bottles and rinsing off plates! But certainly other things have to be let go or I will lose my mind!

Nerd Girl said...

Glad everyone's feeling better!

Did you say grilled cheese truck? Yummmmmm, grilled cheese sammies on demand. Why can't I think of these things???

Los Angelista said...

Yum, grilled cheese truck! I want that to roll through my neck of the woods!

I so hear you about burning the candle at both ends. I remember those days and have a feeling their going to revisit my family very very soon. Hang in there - you are doing an amazing job and you know the love is the most important thing and evidence of how you really do have it going on!